Friday. Back to work on the psych ward after being off for a week and a half. Back to the “morning” routine (which starts after noon).
Over the summer, I would start my day with a sun salutation and sometimes meditation. I got frustrated, though, with the puppy monster biting my nose or wanting to play. Further, school started, studying after work got me home at 3 AM, and that morning serenity attempt went out the door as I reunited with my old lover, the snooze bar.
For #5, I was going to sit on the chair by my desk with a 10 minute timer set for a standard breath mindfulness sitting session. Of course, when I’m at the desk, my puppy is at my feet looking for something to do. So I took it to the couch, and he did as well. I don’t want to put him back in the crate since he is crated while I sleep and am at work since he can’t be trusted to not chew things up (specifically pens, phone chargers, tampons, paper, socks, stuffed soft things like hats/gloves), or pee on things, like, my bed, even though I’ve had him for a year now. Marking, and lack of Master-y on my part. He obviously thinks I’m mama dog.
During the meditation I was being poked and prodded with various stuffed squeaky toys, tolerable – and my nose didn’t get bit! I’m failing to remember anything significantly interesting about my meditation experience itself except in this context, incentive to write these the same day. 🙂
Ideally I’d meditate after doing fuzzcare and before coffee/shower, but that doesn’t seem practical. Today after showering though I’m reminded that puppy monster is calmer when/after I shower, generally enjoying relaxing on the couch before he gets put back “home.” Perhaps that is a window of opportunity to sit, with calm animals. Not sure if he’d stay calm once I was seated, though, or if he’d want to play. I’ll experiment with that tomorrow. In theory, I could delay coffee, but I brush my teeth in the shower.
Meditation is supposed to help keep it simple. 😛
C’est la vie, TBD.
Update: One somatic memory I have of this particular session was a feeling of relief at one moment when I caught my mind wandering and brought it back to the breath. It gave me a hint of what is to come. ❤